Prayer for Trust: Adam Guillory
The following homily was shared at our Sunday Evening Eucharist Service 3/8/25.
Readings:
Why, God, do I still complain when You are leading me to the promised land? Where does my faith run off to as soon as the storm quiets down? Why am I so insistent to challenge You, to fight You and to argue and complain every step of the way? Even reading through the passages, I spent many tears, and much anger, and in the end I was exactly like the Israelites who angered You. I fight with You all the time, I look around and I fail to see Your provision, and I only see my own fault, and the pain which that fault has caused me.
I don’t know what rocks will start gushing water. I don’t know if tomorrow I will suffer or rejoice. I don’t know where You’re leading me, and I don’t know what I even want, much less what You want. I know only a small fraction of any situation that I find myself in, and knowing more doesn’t seem to help any.
I pray, God, that You soften my heart, that You give me faith, and that You heal my broken spirit. I pray that You perform a number of miracles in my life, because I need You. Your power is well known, many people have attested to it. It’s not as though a miracle will be a permanent fix. It’s not because I can promise to be faithful if I just have this one thing. The Israelites proved that we cannot be faithful on our own. For all our faults, the highest of them is that we cannot trust You, no matter how many times You prove trustworthy. I pray, therefore, that You heal my broken nature. Keep me from temptation because I can’t withstand it. Give me the joy of Your salvation and give me a willing spirit which wants to serve You.
I need You, God. I need to be healed by You. I need to be shown Your ways. I need to eat the food You give and drink the water You supply. I want to never hunger again and I want to never thirst again. Help my unbelief, God. Give me the joy of Your salvation. Give me Yourself.
I do not deserve Your Presence. I only ask that You give it anyway. I have nothing to offer You, except what You have given me. I have nothing but You. I pray that You help me along. I pray that You show me my way. I pray that You give me food to eat and clothes to wear. I pray that You teach me what it means to hope only in Your Son. I pray for Your Holy Spirit to rain down on us, and to dwell in our hearts. I pray that the words we speak echo Your love and the lives we live echo Your commands. I pray that I trust You, God.
Amen.
Adam Guillory (pictured here with niece Eva) is a senior Engineering major at Louisiana Tech and has blessed our community with his presence and joy since he showed up on our doorstep the fall of his freshman year. His wisdom, excitement, and tenacious desire to serve are priceless gifts to our ministry. Adam is passionate about swordsmanship, D&D, puns, and his friends. He will be serving his fourth year on our Discipleship Team this school year, and it has been a delight to see him grow in his faith.